Identity Crisis: Lost and Found
How do you discuss a topic when you are constantly finding yourself? I'm 22. There's so much that I have yet to learn and old habits that I am unlearning. One of the things that millennials or young adults in general tend to struggle with is identity. Your childhood, social or cultural experiences is known to contribute to shaping your identity. My story is a similar one, but I have finally found the strength to be both vulnerable and transparent instead of grappling with emotions and never coming to terms with acknowledging them.
Last year when I first began
blogging I talked about my testimony and through that you guys got some insight
through into my life. One of the reasons why I struggled with identity is
because I struggled with rejection. When I was in the womb, my birth mother
didn't want me. However, she was nice enough to give birth and place me up for
adoption. Most adoptees or parents who've went through that process understands
how tedious and stressful it is. I was raised in a loving household and had a
great childhood. I was the only girl out of 4 brothers --- my foster
brothers. They loved me, guided me, teased me. I am so grateful that I wasn't
given a childhood that bruised me emotionally, physically, or psychologically.
Thus, a childhood that I didn’t have to heal from.
Even after all of this, my life hasn't been perfect. Another event that contributed to my identity was losing broth of my fathers. I lost my dad at five to cancer and my stepdad to a sudden heart attack at the age of 19. I always resented girls with two parent households because I never had that. However, God is healing me. “No longer do I have to continue grappling with identity issues. I have realized when I doubt who I am, I question what God created.” So, what is identity? According to Merriam Webster’s Dictionary, identity “is the distinguishing character of personality of an individual.” When we search for our identity we must look to look our creator and he created us in His Image. In Genesis, this is clearly illustrated "So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him, male and female he created him." (Genesis 1:26-28)
1. God created us in His Image.
God created us in his image. Male
and female. (Genesis 1:26-28) Yes, he
created you, your parents, and your best friend, there is nobody on this earth
that God didn't create. My next point is that he predestined us. This is so
beautiful because he had us in his mind when he formed the world and us.
"Before I formed thee in the belly, I
knew thee; before thee camest forth out the womb I sanctified thee a prophet
unto the nations." (Jeremiah 1:5)
Before Jeremiah was born, God chose him and ordained him a prophet. In the next
couple verses, Jeremiah makes up excuses and doubted his calling. After God
already put a stamp on it. How many times do we do this daily? With a job?
Starting an organization? Writing a book and so on.
God has given me all the tools I
need to walk with him on this journey. No daddy issues, trust issues, doubt, or
identity issues can keep me from his unfailing love and from fulfilling my
purpose. As I mentioned earlier, I have been struggling with this forever. Last
night while worshipping, "Pour Me Out" came on by Todd Dulaney and
the lyrics just hit me saying "I stepped down from the thrown of my heart,
all I am it was yours from the start." Basically, we don't have to search
for our identity elsewhere, it can only be found in Christ.
If you have struggled with identity
issues o anything I mentioned in this blog. Please email or leave a comment
below for prayer. God loves you so much!
XO. Nikia A. Handy
Email: purposeroomministries@gmail.com
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